THE LAST OF ME
From the day I was born life dealt me these f***** up cards.
And I have spent my entire life trying to play them in my favor.
But people like me don't get favors.
And every time I think I get something going
life comes in and I look at my hand and see those same cards staring back at me.
Telling me that this is it.
Happiness is not meant for you.
Its not in your cards and no matter how many times you draw from the deck the s*** won't change.
Remember, even the best card trick done by the greatest magician will always turn up the same.
I see now that things will not change for me.
Tired of being sold lies that I can't afford to buy.
So this is the last of me.
The last tear I'll ever cry. The last smile I'll ever fake.
The last time my heart will ever break and shatter under false hope of what awaits.
This is the last of me.
And since he is all knowing I hope God will forgive me.
See you don't understand the pain that sits on my heart or what its like to have your life ripped apart.
And every time it seems to get better, I find more things that inspire this letter.
And I only hope that God will see that there were no options left for me and that I am sorry.
Sorry for committing this sin of life or should I say death.
But try to understand, I have nothing left.
This is the last of me.
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Too many people give suicide too much credit. Credit for being the only way out of their situation. Not realizing that the only way out is the way in. Weighin their options against the weight on their shoulders thinking its too heavy for them to spread their wings and change things. But we were all meant to fly like angels on earth. So recognize what your life is worth. People realize that your life is worth so much more than I’m saying in this verse and LIVE.
PAINFUL AS THIS TIME IS, YOU WILL ONE DAY SEE THE REASON FOR IT. NOT CRUEL TESTING, BUT TENDER PREPARATION FOR THE WONDERFUL WORK YOU ARE TO DO.
